I realized I was a Pagan around the age of 13 or so, I was a freshman in high school and while I had been using a computer and the internet since a very young age, I had never thought to start looking around for others who believed in similar things.
I grew up in a Christian household, my family wasn't super religious or anything and my dad says he's not a religious person, which is very true, but he does believe in God and was raised Christian himself. Neither of my parents really pushed religion in the way I think most people would assume religion is pushed on a child. I was just told that I needed to believe in God and that was that. When I was in elementary school my parents would let me go to church with my other friends, Catholic, Lutheran, Protestant, and the list goes on. My family, however, never went to church, which I'm actually grateful for. I'm glad I was never forced to go to church and when I wanted to, I could go to experience it.
After a while I started believing in the balance of things and sort of disagreed with the idea of one god. I have respect for all religions, I'm not saying anyone is wrong and anyone is right, but Christianity just wasn't right for me. I also disagreed that there was just one masculine force, since I believed in the idea of balance, I wondered why there was no feminine to balance the masculine. I dismissed these thoughts for a while for fear that I was doing something bad, I feared doing anything against my dad's wishes as he means a lot to me.
After making the decision to find out just what I believe in and finding a religion that suited me, I started researching online. I started a journal at uJournal when it was still around and had that for some time. I then found livejournal and started a journal there after realizing there were so many more people on that site. I've been a member over there ever since, my current journal I have had since 2005 and it's a permanent journal. Journaling sites have helped me a lot on my path because I could actually talk to people who believed in similar things that I did. I could ask questions, sometimes stupid questions, but I would always get more than a few answers.
As quite a few Pagans are, I was first exposed to Wicca as it seems to have a pretty large following and it's quite easy to find people online who are Wiccans. I realized very quickly that this was not the religion for me, while I respect it, it absolutely wasn't what I was looking for. Once I started figuring out that specific paths just didn't seem to do it for me, I became discouraged. I thought I wasn't going to find anything just for me, that fit what I believed. Then I started realizing that a lot of people are Pagans but either aren't path specific, or they are but have made it all their own. That inspired me. I was able to call myself a Pagan, yet not get into specific paths. My beliefs are very, very Pagan so that's what I labeled myself as (and still do to this day.)
I started making things my own, I read a lot of books and a lot of articles or blogs when I could and I made ideas and rituals and spells into my own. The best part? It worked for me. I didn't have to be part of a group or do things exactly the way someone else said to do them, I found what worked best for me and it made me happy.
I wasn't open about my beliefs at all until I left high school. I didn't tell anyone that I'm a Pagan, I didn't tell anyone that I did rituals or did spells or believed that there are multiple gods and even goddesses. I just didn't talk about it. I was afraid of being laughed at or that someone would shun me.
After high school I started to become more active within the Pagan community and along the way I've made a lot of friends and I've talked to a lot of very interesting people. At this point though, I felt like something was really missing. At this point I didn't have a particular deity in my life, I was open to the idea of having one and I was open to the idea of gods and goddesses, yet I didn't have a particular deity in my life. It became frustrating, I thought about it a lot and dwelled on it. I wrote about it quite often also but I firmly believed that when I was ready to have a deity in my life, one would speak to me and I would absolutely know it. A few years had passed at this point, I tried to suppress my frustration but I knew that I really wanted something in my life. Finally, I made myself stop thinking about it. I knew if I calmed down and stopped thinking about it so much, that I would be ready and something would let me know.
One night, I think I was alone as my boyfriend was on the road for work, I had a very vivid and strange dream. I was standing in the woods, it was early in the morning but just getting light, I started walking straight ahead and had no idea where I was going. A stag jumped out in front of me and just stared at me. After a while he started walking and I followed him, this didn't seem to bother him at all so I kept following him. We reached a clearing and he just completely vanished. As I was standing there, I noticed I could hear something walking and it seemed to be getting closer. I could hear something scraping on tree branches but I had no idea what was coming my way.
I saw movement in my peripheral vision and I turned to see a man coming out of the woods. He appeared to be in his late twenties to early thirties and powerfully built. His face was cleanly shaved, or so it appeared. He looked young but very wise. Then I quickly started realizing a few things about this man. He had hooves and his lower body was more stag like than human....except for his very human penis which at this point was erect. His torso, shoulders, and face were all human. He had human hair but then I noticed he had a huge rack of antlers. Needless to say I woke up shortly after this, I was startled. The man who had appeared seemed welcoming enough but one doesn't see too many men who look like what I just described, even in dreams. I woke up confused as hell.
I went about my day, thinking about the dream off and on and wondering where I even got the image of the man I'd seen in the dream. I wasn't sure if I'd read something that would have sparked it or if I had watched something but I really couldn't think of anything. Finally I decided to do some research and see if there were any images that matched what I had seen. I started out with searching "stag man" and other similar silly names. And slowly enough, an idea crept into my head, "horned god." The name Cernunnos popped up in a few places but so many images came up with that search, images that were close to what I had seen. While most images of Cernunnos are of an older man with a beard, I was absolutely certain that this was who appeared in my dream.
I sat at my computer all day and read about Cernunnos. Everything I had seen matched up with this particular god. I was beyond excited. I got onto livejournal and posted in a Pagan community explaining what had happened and if anyone could give me in depth information about Cernunnos. I was happy and excited, I thought "this is the god that wants me to follow him!"
Then someone broke my heart. "This doesn't mean Cernunnos wants you to worship him, he can only be worshiped by true Celtic Pagans who have Celtic decent only. He wouldn't show himself to you." That wasn't the exact quote, the exact quote was far more mean than that. I should have known better than to listen to just one person, gods can do whatever they damn well want to do and they can pick whoever they want. It hit me really hard though, regardless of the thoughts that were going on in the back of my head, I gave up. I didn't think about Cernunnos, I didn't do research on him, nothing. I just gave up.
Months had passed and I forgot about it, not about Cernunnos, he just wasn't my first thought, he was an after thought occasionally. I went to bed one night and fell asleep instantly and had a very restful night of sleep. I began having another very vivid dream. I was in a clearing in the woods, it was closer to night this time and was getting dark in a hurry. Once again Cernunnos appeared, this time just out of thin air it seemed and right in front of me. He actually talked to me this time! His voice was deep yet soothing. He asked me why I stopped learning about him and why I stopped thinking about him. I remember replying but I don't recall what I said. I'm assuming it had something to do with the incident. His voice became a little more harsh and he said "You are mine, I chose you, you worship me" and I woke up suddenly. I was startled and shocked, I didn't know what to think. I made the quick decision that Cernunnos was to be my patron god and if someone had a problem with it, then they could fuck off.
This whole thing took place a few years ago. To this day I still worship Cernunnos and he is my patron god, he is also the only god that I worship. If another deity wants to approach me, then I will listen completely but until then, Cernunnos is the only deity that I worship. I love the relationship that we have. I leave him offerings of incense and he protects me and gives me his strength. I talk to him in meditation and in dreams. I'm very happy to have him in my life.
Thanks for reading once again everyone. I urge you to leave comments and ask questions or let me know what you want to hear more about.
Great post! Love the details.
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting to me that there was this gap of a couple years or so between finding a spirit totem and finding a spirituality. In fact I would have expected the reverse order. For me the concepts of gods and spirits are pretty inseparable so it's difficult to imagine believing in one without the other. I also have to give a lot of credit to you and others who choose to wait for a god to speak to you before having any involvement with them. That's gotta take some real guts and faith. Of course that seems to pay off extremely well when it happens.
Such vivid dreams... Even including that you saw something in your peripheral vision, and his apparent age. If my dreams have such detail, I can't recall it, even when having amazing ability for visualization while awake. Maybe it's just a memory thing, or maybe everything in my mind is too chaotic there to coalesce long enough into such details..
I honestly didn't know so many Celtic pagans were also among the stuck-up crowd until you mentioned it before. It's pretty sad. I have a feeling that more of those such people are the ones who haven't waited for signs from gods and are picking up their religion as a way to right-action and belonging to a rightful group. In their defense, people used to be born into these cultures and mythologies rather than waiting for them to pop up.. But the side-effect seems to mean lots of intolerance. I really wonder how it was in ancient times. Did most people just follow along because it was the mainstream, without any significant personal spiritual events, or was it relatively common to be able to go out in the community and talk with someone about your experiences with this or that deity or animal spirit? Hard to picture. Maybe that's more what it is like for indigenous hunter-gatherer people.
Hope you don't mind this long comment, but you asked for one so.. :P I guess my question would be.. what OTHER sorts of dreams you've had with Hawk and Cernnunos, besides these sort of introductions. But really I'm interested in the continuation of this story after this point, so whatever comes next...
I'm not sure why there was a gap there. I've been sitting here trying to figure out exactly why that is. I don't want to say I was confused about religion or gods or God and I don't want to say I was confused about what I believed in but I guess it's sort of along those same lines. I just wasn't sure what I personally believed, I knew there was something, I just hadn't figured out what exactly.
ReplyDeleteYou know, I've actually been contemplating going to a sleep study because of my vivid dreams. I've been having them since I was very, very young and I can even remember more than a handful of dreams that I had at a very young age. It used to be once or twice a week but now I have incredibly vivid dreams every night and I'm not exaggerating at all. I wake up feeling sleepy, it's almost like I'm living another life at night. I would like to say this has some sort of spiritual explanation but in order to begin to think that, I think I should probably go do a sleep study and first find out if there's anything wrong. Although, to be honest I don't think there is. I don't have sleep apnea, I don't have narcolepsy. So I'm just not sure what to think about this.
I have decided though that I'm going to start a dream journal so I can write down all of my dreams and then maybe I'll go to someone about it.
I really recommend that you start one too, even if your dreams are chaotic and the thoughts are scattered, you could still benefit from it. I think maybe it could help you remember your dreams better in the long run, and you could analyze them and see what they're saying to you :)
I don't want to group all of those together who are Celtic Pagans but some of the ones I've met do seem to be quite stuck up in that aspect, again, I'm not saying all or most of them are, just some that I have met do seem to have that mind set. However, if you want to get technical, I do have Scottish and Irish ancestry. As far as saying they were Celts, I can't claim that but there is something there. I've also always have an affinity for Scotland and Ireland, I hope to go there some day. Just for a nice long vacation.
On the other hand, most of my heritage comes from Scandinavia and most of my ancestors were Vikings. Hence my intense interest in Asatru at one point, which I'm still very interested in, but as we talked about before, a few bad experiences XD.
"people used to be born into these cultures and mythologies rather than waiting for them to pop up"
This is a very, very good point and I fully respect that and the way of thinking. However, I don't think it's entirely valid in today's world, so I think that needs to be taken into consideration now.
I absolutely don't mind this long comment at all! I really enjoyed it! Thanks for commenting.
I'm going to write down what you've just asked so I can talk about it in a future post. I want to make one more post about the path that I'm on currently and then I'll make a post about more dreams that I've had about Hawk and Cernunnos.
I also need to respond to your messages, as I've made you wait quite a while :P
Well I certainly don't see any problem with incredibly vivid dreams every night. I wish I had that. And I think it's quite safe to say at least some of them are spiritual in nature :P We might suppose then that the rest just comes from the same wiring, when it's not being used by other beings to visit with you.. though it sounds like most of the time there is some of that. I *have* heard of people who have frequently vivid dreams, or used to, entirely outside of a spiritual context. This just doesn't seem to be the case with you. I'm not sure what the sleep study could reveal but it sounds interesting.. I will say, I have a friend who claims never, ever to recall dreams, as if he never has them at all. Be glad you're not like that!
ReplyDelete...As a side note.. My dad tells me that when I was very little, I came crying to him because a giant spider had rolled a rock on top of me, suffocating me, and this is when he had to explain to me that dreams aren't real. Hmm. I'm not entirely sure what counts as "vivid". I have pretty clear memory of some dreams or parts of dreams, including from childhood, but the only sensations I recall are visual and sometimes audio. I just can't imagine dreams with smells, or touch, or being fully conscious of my physical body's relative position to anything. My POV is occasionally detached, like a camera (I remember at least once viewing myself as if I'm an oblivious character in a film). I wonder if this has to do with being detached in the real world x_X Such as in digital simulations which would be missing those senses and have those abilities. Well that sucks, maybe I'll have more full-sensory dreams when I finally start spending more time outside than in.
Oh wait, one time I actually died at the end of my dream. I had some physical sensations from that. Shards of glass from an explosion embedded themselves in the back of my neck. I remember the veins in my eyes filling with blood, and there was a strange feeling which spread from the neck that I can't describe, and it was still there a bit when I woke up. Maybe that counts as vivid.
I've thought about doing a dream-journal a lot.. What I've ended up doing is writing them down in notepad that morning IF I felt it was significant enough. More recently I've been doing this directly on Facebook, if you noticed, which I quite enjoy. There's also the problem that often, the things from the dream which I remember do not fit together at all when put into words, and a lot of the memory is of feelings rather than events. So the journals would mostly be scattered details that have no connection. And I really wish my high school crush and her sister would stop appearing in them, it's quite annoying. Once a month. Anyways I will see about doing it more often on facebook, as that's where all the others are.. I'll probably put some old ones in my new blog.
Right, I didn't mean to suggest that it seems all or most of Celtic pagans are like that; I'd be surprised if they were because I generally find people interested in Celtic culture to be a lot more easy-going. Hmmm you know I didn't even consider if one could have Irish ancestry (I do) and not Celtic ancestry. :| I mean, I'm not sure what else it would be. It wouldn't surprise me at all if we both have Celtic in there. A vacation sounds great! I want to see the castles and faerie hills, myself. I just don't think I'll afford it, and I don't want to get stuck in Europe if some major political crap happens! Too little wilderness.
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"This is a very, very good point and I fully respect that and the way of thinking. However, I don't think it's entirely valid in today's world, so I think that needs to be taken into consideration now."
ReplyDeleteNot especially happy with the fact that it's not as valid, but it's true, everything's been thrown in together and jumbled up, both in terms of ancestry and culture. It really makes me wonder about all the practical differences this has meant between then and now in the spirit realms. How to gods and spirits find us in all that mess? What about the ones who aren't even mentioned in surviving texts? Why should the ones who happened to survive in that form be the ones who will connect with people today? And I think it's a refusal to acknowledge the difference of now and then which fuels a lot of intolerance. I dunno, I would be very happy to see globalization ended and tribal cultures rise again, despite how interesting it is to be able to observe all the diversity. And I ultimately don't believe the globalized state of things can be sustained so eventually, something will happen. What I wonder and worry about is what sort of picture will things settle down into after that? Will new groups of people remember and stick to the old gods, or will new ones come around, or old ones evolve anew, or will they mix together, or will most people even follow gods, or what. I'd be especially interested to see industrial society end in Asia and the old animistic religions rise to the surface, which gave so much reverence to the dragon spirits of weather and sea.. For a place like America, it's really hard to tell what would happen, there's so much here and very little of it is what the land originally linked with. Raven hints that the Nine Worlds are slowly re-linking with our world, not just where it used to but where we live on this continent as well.. and that excites me. I know there's lots of wilderness in Oregon; I like to think that it's possible a "door" to someplace in the Nine Worlds could one day be found there. So it would be nice if such places survive in the minds of people through ways like that. And I still have to wonder how that's possible when things are so mixed up.
And so ends another huge-ass comment from me xP And yes that will be nice to get those replies :)
I had to open up notepad for this comment, lol. I'm also trying to keep an eye on my ferrets while I type this up so bear with me please.
ReplyDeleteI would like to say most of them come from a spiritual place and honestly, I believe most of them do, just because of the context. However, I know quite a few people would disagree with me and say that I should go with the simplest answer and get a sleep study done, etc, etc. Which I might, out of my own interest, if my insurance covers it anyway!
I have heard of other people claiming they don't dream, which I don't know if that's possible! That would imply that you're not entering your REM cycle (right? correct me if I'm wrong on that) and I know that's not a good thing. I have a feeling your friend just doesn't recall them, which is not a bad thing, unless your friend is bummed about this. I knew someone who also claimed to not have dreams at night, ever. It's a very odd thing. I really think he just couldn't remember them at all.
I think that sounds like it's a vivid dream. I really think anytime you wake up and actually think that something happened to you that was in a dream, it's pretty vivid.
"My POV is occasionally detached, like a camera (I remember at least once viewing myself as if I'm an oblivious character in a film). I wonder if this has to do with being detached in the real world"
Honestly, I don't know what to say about this part because I often see myself in my dreams (as though I'm watching a movie) and I guess I've never looked into what that can mean. I don't see it as a bad thing, I know there are some supersitions behind seeing yourself in a dream, but I've never had any harm come from it. I either see myself or I see everything through my eyes. Although, now that I think about it, most of my spiritual related dreams (that are obviously spiritual) are where I see myself as though I'm watching a movie. Hmmm...that's interesting. I wonder what that could mean. This is something I'll have to try and keep track of in my dream journal when I start it.
I have noticed that you've been putting them on Facebook, which I think is a great idea, it's really neat when you can get input from others. It's really interesting to see an outside perspective of what's going on in your mind. Although, like you, I can have a hard time putting parts of the dream into words. I really feel like my descriptions of my dreams don't do justice to the actual dreams. I truly feel as though I'm fully awake an in another place completely, I can feel everything, touch everything, smell everything, etc. I really just can't seem to put that into words properly at all.
ReplyDelete"And I really wish my high school crush and her sister would stop appearing in them"
I never would have guessed that you have a sister. Probably because you never talk about her, lol, but I honestly was under the impression you were an only child.
Do they keep appearing because you have any unresolved issues with them? Or do you wish they were in your life more/or had been in your life more?
Just a few guesses, I obviously don't know what your relationship was like with either of these people so I just went with the two obvious ones.
"I didn't mean to suggest that it seems all or most of Celtic pagans are like that"
Sorry! I didn't mean to imply that you did. I was just making sure for the sake of someone getting upset while reading my blog. While it is my blog and I can say whatever I want, I'd rather not offend large groups of people, haha. So that's why I kept stating "some, not all or most."
I think I do have Celtic ancestry but I'm not 100% positive on that so I don't want to claim and it turns out that I didn't. But, I think that's why I have such a strong pull towards Celtic Paganism and even Druidry but I've been turned off to both just by the way I've had some people act towards me who were either Celtic Pagans or Druids. I'm getting back into it though and quickly. I'll believe in whatever the fuck I want to :D
That reminds me, I'll have to tell you the story about my run-in with a druid while working at Hy-Vee. You'll find it hilarious. Needless to say, he was not a very good example for the rest of the group. It's sad the way one person can set the tone for the rest of the group, stupid stereotypes!!
"How do gods and spirits find us in all that mess?"
I've been wondering this myself. I think it has something to do with keeping your mind open to different possibilites but I think it's more than that, I just don't know what. If Cernunnos did call me because of my heritage and because I was open to him, how did he find me? And, even without knowing him before our interaction, how was I open to him to begin with?
I think about those things a lot but I really don't know what my thoughts are about it. I'm just not sure at all.
Lol yay, more Notepad. It's fine and I somehow forgot to check specifically for comment-replies in this yesterday, and anyway I know you have many other things to be doing.
ReplyDeleteBriefly on the no-dreaming - I do also suspect they don't remember it. Perhaps from a memory issue, or.. well in the case I know, this guy is a pretty depressed and unenthusiastic person about a lot of things, somehow it seems to fit but I can't explain it.
Aha, didn't realize those dreams of yours were sometimes third-person. Actually, when I think about it, even though I'm often viewing a "camera" perspective, and even if I *should* be in view, I don't recall observing my body much in dreams. The one I remember from when I was VERY young was, I got out of bed and walked over to the door of my room. (This was like, when I was 3ish years old, somehow it was big enough that the memory survived.) This doorway was always blocked by one of those toddler plastic wall things. I was standing at this shaking it and yelling for my parents to come, looking into their dark doorway across the hall and getting no response. Then, *I* continued to do this, but the POV rolled back behind me and panned over to my bed, where the stuffed white bear started waddling over toward *me* who was oblivious to this happening. The memory I still have does not include seeing how I looked, though, just the impression that *I* was still at the doorway, which was in camera view, unknowing, very ominous. Hmm....
Another point on this is that sometimes I seem to assume the body of different characters in a dream at different times. Sometimes I am Doctor Who, for example, and sometimes Doctor Who is someone I'm speaking with, or trying to. I think one time I was even his traveling companion on and off, who was a girl.
"I truly feel as though I'm fully awake an in another place completely, I can feel everything, touch everything, smell everything, etc. I really just can't seem to put that into words properly at all."
That sounds so nice.... And even more bizarre if you have that AND third person perspective, sometimes. :|
" "And I really wish my high school crush and her sister would stop appearing in them"
I never would have guessed that you have a sister. Probably because you never talk about her, lol, but I honestly was under the impression you were an only child."
Erm! LOL I *am* an only child. It seems you've made one of the mistakes I catch myself on - omitting a word while reading XD *HER* sister, not mine. My life would be extremely different if I had a sibling.. I can't even begin to imagine.
"Do they keep appearing because you have any unresolved issues with them? Or do you wish they were in your life more/or had been in your life more?
Just a few guesses, I obviously don't know what your relationship was like with either of these people so I just went with the two obvious ones."
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Well that's a long story. I will surely go over the whole high school crush thing in my blog, when I get that far. But it lasted for about one-and-a-half years (ending at the end of high school), starting when she was single but most of that time she was dating another guy. (Her sister, I don't know why she started to appear alongside her a few months ago, but she has. They look quite similar.) In fact I'll probably detail the dreams more there, too, and maybe hijack your blog a little less with the subject. XD But at that time in my life I was what I call a "hopeless romantic", listening to Enya all the time, favorite romance movie was Titanic, blah blah. That part of me was severely injured by that whole thing. I didn't know wtf I was doing and never even really got to know who she was, and I didn't know how to find out.
ReplyDelete....gods, really, I'm going to spill the whole thing if I keep going, it deserves its own blog entry(s). But I do theorize that it's related with the stuffing-away of that part of me and less about that girl, because really, I never knew her, and what little I've realized about her since then quite clearly indicates that we have nothing in common besides a possible struggle with something ADD-related. Sooo trying to make this relevant here, I do think that specific people appearing in our dreams *can* be connected with parts of ourselves rather than those people. My old schools appear in my dreams all the time and I think it's because they're just a part of me. Kinda sucks, I really wish that forests and such were more part of me instead... But anyways, I have wondered if it's possible that SHE is actually a "piece" of my soul which has kinda fled and taken her form. Even more funny since I never knew her and thus it's probably a laughable representation of the actual person. Maybe I should write that blog entry sooner in case it's important.
"That reminds me, I'll have to tell you the story about my run-in with a druid while working at Hy-Vee. You'll find it hilarious."
:) Indeed, you mentioned him in an early email to me. He had a Celtic shirt and you complimented him and he took offense, and he was shocked to find out you were a pagan, and all that. Pretty lame.
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ReplyDeleteAs for spritis finding us. I'm sure the likes of us will never grasp the whole thing. One of the things which has given me some headaches is Raven stating that "our gods are not omniscient or omnipotent," referring to how they don't always know exactly what circumstance you are in when they decide it's a good time for a possession (like in line at the supermarket), even though they heard some thought you just had to yourself which wasn't directed at them, or they discovered you when you'd never heard of them before, or they "know" that you've broken a taboo which was set. It makes perfect sense to me in a non-monotheist view that they couldn't be omni-potent/niscient, or else none of those myths would "work", but it's very difficult to get out of that Christian mindset where God just "knows" everything about you, past present future. It's also a fine counter to the question "Why would God let this happen??" "Well, he can't do or know everything." "WHAT?!" When I grew up, I remember my dad told me that God could blow up a planet with a single thought if he wanted, but chose not to. o_O lol anyway, I feel they interact with our reality on a different level in such a way that they can "hear" and track down certain things, like listening for cosmic vibrations of certain tones and following them to wherever they lead, something I bet we can't hope to do consiously.
For example... one thought I had. Cernnunos waited a while after you stopped researching him before coming to you again and asking why. I might guess that, being who he is, he's a busy guy and has plenty of other things he does and people he bothers. Since you weren't actively sending out a call to him or anything, he wasn't noticing you, but of course didn't forget. So when he finally "checked in" with you, he could somehow "listen" for a certain cosmic rhythm (especially because it has to do with him) and tell from it that you hadn't been doing this, even if he hadn't been over your shoulder the whole time reading what you were reading, lol. Only a theory!
...Wow lol, your blog changed color as I was posting these!
my, a lot of comments, first I'm glad you didn't give up completely for many different reasons. While I was reading what that person said I felt that it was wrong, I'm Celtic heritage but Cernunnos wasn't just a Celtic god but worshiped thoughout Gaul, hence his figure being found as far as Turkey and further even I think. I too have an affinity for Ireland and Scotland and want to go there someday. and I wish to quickly remind you that Vikings traveled to Britain and mixed with the Anglo Saxons so you might even consider the possibilities of being Celtic from your Viking side, never know. But either way it doesn't matter, I can't imagine telling a god who can or cannot worship him.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you need to do a sleep study, vivid dreams are rare but not anything wrong with them. I occasionally dream vividly, usually when I'm dreaming about the future, thus I also have strange events of deja vu til I remember, oh yeah, I dreamed this, and so have decided it means I'm on the right path.